November 2011
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Clue 7: Him
I don’t know what i think of him. I can’t tell what are the emotions, and its because i have been so used to being some sort of emotional vaccum. I have no soul.
He’s really manipulative and that puts me in a very difficult position. On the one hand, i should be horrified at his manipulation, yet at the same time - i being me - i admire his ability to manipulate, and to do so so...
Clue 6: Principles
For the last few years, i have been recognized as someone who strictly, and more often than not, stupidly adheres to odd principles, that often are not morally driven but just seem to have be formed myself. It is these which guide me, and it is these which i get ridiculed often about by my friends. Indeed, they have been an important part of my identity as someone who is ‘morally...
May 2011
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Clue 5: Insecurity
I don’t have anorexia. I’m not fat. I’m thin.. and I probably hate myself for it. ’Skinny’ - one my best friend says. It sounds like a compliment, but i know how its just another word for scrawly, veiny, boney… ugly.
I’m not white. I’m yellow. Many times, I have hated myself for it. Its an awful feeling. How can i hate my own race, my own...
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Clue 4: Leavers
I cannot belive the time has finally come.. seven years in this school, in this setting, with these people, and now i leave. What has become of the people i once call my friends? What has become of the people i still call my friends? What about me.. i’ve changed, i know i have.
Yet, i still look about 12. Ironically the picture on my little card is probably from when i was 12.
I’m...
February 2011
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Clue 3: The ethnicity
I don’t want to be crude and list all the stereotypes of this ethnicity, yet at the same time i find myself otherwise unable to describe it specifically to you. Today i think i may try to be subtle, and maybe oneday i may supplement this clue with more obvious writing.
A long long history. A withstanding culture. A large population. A obsessive focus on education. An obsessive focus on...
January 2011
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Clue 2: The Gender
The flowery language probably says it all. Yet, then again whose to say poetic rhetoric is solely used by this one gender? Merely a stereotype.
The indecisiveness is perhaps a reflection of the inner turmoil and fear of change. Whilst i protest to be a rational person, we are emotionally driven. Protected under the wings of parents. Protected by the traditional bread-winner. Societies perceptions...
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Clue 1: The Age
Reaching the turning point in my life. The pivot where the transition is made. Innoncence to experience. Never has Blake been more fitting. This is the age.
The year that finally means i am old enough to go out into world on my own two feet. Finally able to show people that little card, and say this is me. This is the age.
Yet, im more clueless than ever. Although this year i’ve made some...